591. She Left Her Body & Came Back Changed Forever | Kundalini Spiritual Awakening - Allura Halliwell

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Speaker 2: , Welcome to Soul Elevation, guiding Your Ascension to New heights. I'm your host, Kara Goodwin. I'm excited for you to hear this beautiful episode with Allura Holwell. She had a profound out-of-body experience that completely changed her. She shares the fascinating revelations presented from that experience and the challenges she encountered in the years following it as she tried to process
it. In this episode, you'll learn how the depth of her experience of source and creation allows her to help shift people into more authentic and healed versions of their life. We cover a lot of ground in this one, so get ready to receive a lot of great info. All Halliwell is a conscious mentor and transformational guide whose radical awakening in 2018 catapulted her into a lifelong mission, helping others

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reconnect with the truth of who they really are. Formerly a stay-at-home mother of three Allura's. Life changed forever after a spontaneous out-of-body experience at a meditation retreat that left her seeing the energetic fabric of reality. The experience dissolved her former identity and birthed a new purpose, guiding others to profound reconnection, which she does now through her signature modality, the Consciousness method. So we'll begin very shortly. But first I wanna
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conversations. So go ahead and hit that like button while you're thinking about it. Alright, let's begin. Enjoy this episode. kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: Welcome Allura. I'm so excited to have you here today. Thanks for coming on. Soul Elevation. squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: Oh, it's my absolute honor and pleasure. I'm so excited for this conversation. I. kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: Me too. I wanna start by just having you talk about the massive out-of-body experience that started
you on the path that you're on now. squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: Yes. That experience was a complete shift in my trajectory, in my timeline, in my soul essence, in my expression, in my identity, in how my physical reality was created. Um, and it happened spontaneously and without a lot of preparation, which was something that I had to really integrate afterwards. What happened for me was I was a stay home mom of three beautiful kids, um, in a relationship with, you know, a really well-intentioned

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man that was very, just struggling with stress and financial overwhelm. Trying to think about the next meal, trying to think about. The kids at school and I was just very much in mum life and mum mode and really in a survival mode and I, I think I was pretty numb to a spiritual life and to connecting to something greater than myself. But friends invited me to a meditation retreat and I was like, oh, this is a great opportunity for a holiday. I am gonna go and have a break. I had a four, six, and 8-year-old at
that that point. Um, went to the meditation retreat and realized that something was. Feeling different as soon as I stepped into the energetics of that experience. And then one morning at the retreat, we walked down to the beach to meditate. I walked onto the sand. I felt not quite myself. And then as I walked further onto the beach, I could feel my body getting heavier. I got pulled to the sand kind of on my knees, and then I was like, I just have to lie down. I'm not sure what's happening to me, but I can't keep

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going. And as I lay down, I could feel energy or consciousness moving in my body. So from the base of my feet all the way up, and eventually my consciousness came out the top of my head and I could see my body lying. On the beach. And I was like, oh my gosh, that's my body. What, what's happening to me? I kept breathing, but it was very much like an out of body, um, sort of near death experience. my, um, consciousness kept moving
and it eventually came into the bright light, which people speak of, my consciousness merged with this pure white light. And that was almost like a portal, I feel too. The void. So then my consciousness merged with everything, the essence of everything. And it was there that I about a, an hour and a half out of body. Um, I think people just thought I was sleeping, but I was having this completely transcendental experience. And when I

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eventually came back into my body. I opened my eyes and I could only see energy. So nothing was fixed anymore. Everything was particles vibrating. I looked at the ocean, the sky, everything was moving. And I was like, oh my goodness, where am I? What am I doing here? And I woke up with a form of amnesia. I was almost like, I don't really know why I am here or what I'm doing, but I feel really constricted to be back in a body. And I feel very
overwhelmed, um, with my nervous system and this physical reality. And from there I realized that some of my really set identity aspects had kind of left. I wasn't really sure who I was. I wasn't really sure. Um, who the people around me were, I didn't really have set preferences. I began to feel a lot of energy moving in my body. So I had a massive Kundalini activation, so I was vibrating and shaking processing a lot. Um, and from there it was really a

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journey to integrate my experience and to begin to understand because it was like having a bird's eye view of being born into this reality. from another level of consciousness, but then still having the body and the, and the life that I had previously. kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: Wow. It sounds amazing. I can imagine it was a lot for you to be thrust into something like that. Um, with really no. Background
in it. Um. So was there, you have a lot of language for it now. You know, you've talked about like Kundalini, you've talked about, talked about transcendence, outof, body experience, all of this language that people may be familiar with. But I can, again, I can imagine like if I had had this experience and I was very new to, you know, a meditation retreat, spirituality like that, I would be very. Confused

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and I, I don't know. I, I can imagine the disorientation as well as you, you talked about you came back and there was some amnesia. Do you have language now as to that experience? So I can already hear people in my imagination? Was, did she have a walk-in? Was this a, you know, so what kind of language do you have now to help you kind of define, if you will, what that was? squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239:
Yeah, and thank you for honoring that because it was incredibly disorientating and. was no one that could offer me any answers. There was, it was the very deep, dark night of the soul where you're very much isolated in this experience. Um, whilst I was vibrating and seeing energy and. I was also seeing the fabric of reality and becoming very much like my mind was completely blown. And it was almost like the mental

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circuits that I had and the nervous system I had, could barely keep up with all the multidimensional experiences I was having, um, you know, mystical experiences, you know, being able to bend time and move objects and all these kind of things that were happening to me that I couldn't describe or explain, but I knew I was tethered to the source of. Everything, but I was also very limited and, and trying to bridge that gap. So I suppose now
on reflection, you know, I've sat with that concept of being a walk-in and whether that is something that happened to me, but what I actually feel maybe happened was a rapid expansion of my consciousness that I am still essentially the same soul and same human. But it was just like a fast track of awakening and. Um, access to a vast consciousness, and it was an initiation into that space. So I felt more like a conduit, I suppose, to bring

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back the information that I experienced out of my body and the, suppose, the access I could have in seeing how reality was coded from coming from the outside in, which became really important to me because. I landed here and I was like, oh my gosh, we're having this experience. What is the underpinning of this experience? is it that I've come into a nervous system and I've come into a reality that feels so deeply out of
alignment with my soul, or my essence, or truth? Um, and I, I witnessed how I'd created a reality. That was distant from my, my essence, I suppose. And not to say that I, you know, of course the deep love and truth about having beautiful children was undeniable part of that. But I also had to come to terms with that because from the consciousness I'd met, even that felt unusual and strange to have had children. So everything was

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in flux and, and up for, you know, reinvention and seeing from a new. lens. Yeah. kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: Hmm. What? What about the. The time after that I, it was such a profound experience and I can imagine it was deeply enriching and it completely shifted your reality, but then it's gone and it's over. And I know that that can be really hard too. I've had my own outof out-of-body
experiences, not to the same level that you've talked about, but they've been so profound and you feel. Like you've merged back into something really truthful and you miss it and you, it was something you didn't even know that you missed. And so how was the, the comeback as you and the integration? squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: I ended up sitting in meditation for between.

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Six to eight hours a day when I wa wasn't sleeping or just trying to manage. Um, I just went, I just had to be with source. So I spent a lot of time back with source because that's where I felt most safe, most connected, kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: And you could get back easily. squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: could close my eyes and merge back to source kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: Oh, that's amazing. squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: I felt completely at home there. It was
when I opened my eyes that I realized. I was not functioning well and not able to really be in the world, you know? I, I couldn't remember how to cook. I couldn't remember my kids' preferences. I couldn't really drive. It was, know, it was a complete, um, shift. And I, you know, I came back to my house and I looked at things that I was told were mine, and I was like, I don't really have a connection to any of these things. So the tethering wasn't there. And, you know, my relationship with my husband

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quickly dissipated because. He looked at me, he is like, you look like an alien. My kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: Wow. squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: me like I died because she's like, I can't find you. I don't know where you are. You know, it was, it was really, um, challenging and that's why, you know, when I'm working with people that have been through these big shifts, get the level of chaos that has to come with some of these awakenings and being able to understand. everything's going into a
form of chaos to reintegrate into another level of consciousness and design is, is a big piece in, in what we are here to do and how we're, you know, here to experience it. And obviously for everyone, it's not always this dramatic, you know, I'm not sure why mine was so, know, intense, but I think it was because I was having to know the depths that is. That are possible and the levels of pain that came with that, the levels of fear that came with that, having to walk through all those, I think was what was

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part of my preparation for what I do now and what I believe I'm here to do, which is to support others to awaken in that. And so I can see now why it had to be the intensity it did, but I, I don't believe everyone has to go through that level of inten intensity on any, for any means to have the awakening. They're here to have. kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: Yeah. Wow. So how about how long did that take until you felt like you were more integrated and,
and did you get to the point where you felt more connection with this realm? squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: Yes. It was approximately two years of very intensive, multidimensional experiences and energetic. The Kundalini was. um, disruptive, but powerful. It was like I was being plugged into a socket, um, of this consciousness that has this certain level of energy and I was learning and it was kind of purifying me and guiding me and, um, really

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reorientating my nervous system. So it was two years and during that time there was a lot of deep, uh, emotional purging because the body I'd come back into was holding 40 years of stress and, um. Uh, like emotional density really. And this is something that's really important as well in the process of being able to be safe with that pain, to release that density through the body, through the body's natural
release pathways of having those emotional outlets. two years, well, you know, I was spent in that state of, you know, purging and releasing and, Being able to see and begin to put the pieces together and have the Kundalini support. And then after around two years, I began to realize that I had to come out of the multidimensional I was existing in and really work. Very clearly with my relationship with

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reality because I realized I could be off doing those existential out of body experiences ongoing. But the real mastery was working out how to integrate that into living a body in this life with a reality around you. that's where the real true work began, because I began to. work really consistently with all the pieces that had become fractured and shattered, I suppose, from that experience. And one of those pieces was working very. with my children to process with them what
levels of abandonment or shock or overwhelm they had from their mother, being one there one day and gone the next, but just a shell of a kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: Hmm. squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: that was a really important part for me. And then I worked from there out and, you know, worked to heal the relationship with my ex-husband who's about to have a baby with a beautiful woman who I'm very close to. Like we're very good friends. His life has taken off.

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Created what he's wanted to have supported the kids in a beautiful way. And I've really worked to reorientate that and then my own family. And then from there, being able to serve in the role I, you know, have serving my community now. I had to go through the, the parts to make sure that my integration was not just for me, but complete around me, and that there was no missing part in that. that took another year or so, and it's still, you know, a process that I'm
aware of keep that, you know, that clarity of, of connection that's so important you're wanting to hold space and guide others towards that. Because I believe that's so important in our lives that we not just do the work in ourselves, but we make sure that work has a wider impact, um, on those around us, especially the relationships that. We fear or we feel very blocked from. Um, and I work a lot with people around that unification with self to allow a new level of

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relationship to come with those that we care about, that we might feel separate from. kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: Hmm. squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: Yeah. kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: really beautiful. Thank you for all of the, you know, this is a really vulnerable story to share and. You know, the, the way that you were really broken open through all of this. You know, I, there are a lot of people who would question their sanity and
where the people that they, that love them would question their sanity. And you made the, the comment about your mom saying like, my daughter's gone. Did you feel within you enough? Understanding about what was happening that you were not questioning whether you were going crazy or like, how did you navigate that piece? squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: Yeah, that was really big and I felt very protected by the relationship with Source. I was very,

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very clear that I was. Being initiated. kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: Oh, good. squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: foundation was there. Like kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: Hmm. squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: I knew that something was coming through me that was greater than me that I didn't have the answers to, but I knew that relationship was solid and defined, and I was invested in that. And that almost held me in a
way protected me. And I was grateful that my family gave me the space to go through. process of the integration and that there wasn't a huge amount of reactivity to my experience, and I kept very quiet. I think that was the thing. I looked, I just looked very much lost in my own inner world. I think that quietness that people were concerned, but they weren't. I knew that all the things that I was seeing, like all the. All the past lives,

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all the, you know, the mystical moments I was having, all the things that I was creating and, and doing and seeing and witnessing, they were for me to learn from. They weren't things that I was feeling called to expressed, expressed to anyone. there was this time where I was like, I'm very much having to find reality and find my relationship to reality to make sure that this gets initiated because. And it completed more so,
um, and that was a big journey to be able to find that. But the tethering to the source of everything really created a foundation that I think without that yeah, there would've been other ramifications for me. And there is other timelines. You know, we can see all the other timelines that are. exist for us, and that was definitely a timeline that was available, but one that I knew that I did not want to invest my energetics and

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design into. Yeah. kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: That's so powerful and. When you talk about the timelines as well, it makes me think in the tethering to source the importance of being really tapped into pure source consciousness. Because when you're having all of this time in, in the ether and, you know, in the, the off planet there, you know, we have this whole,
whole lower astral. Experience where, you know, there are some very scary things, very, uh, demonic things happening there. There are would be easy ways to be not here in, you know, or you know, part of you here, but part of you somewhere else. But you're under this major influence of a lot of darkness and so what a blessing that you had this direct. Line to source. Did you

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feel? Because sometimes when, um, when I've had my own, again, smaller experiences with this, but there hasn't been a ton of lower astral things, but I have had experiences of the astral and you know, like a lot of like carnival type of chaotic, uh, red and green checkerboard, like, and it, and it's, so, it is very like a carnival. It's like a, like a. Casino there, it's like, that's the flavor of it and it's like, oh my God, get me outta here.
It's so chaotic and it's, and it's not necessarily demon from my experience, it hasn't really been demonic, but it's been like not really. It's interesting and curious, but it's also like, no, not this stuff. Let's get to the geometry, let's get to the light, let's get to the structure, let's get to, you know, that kind of a thing. Um, but I, I want, I'd love to hear your experience. squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: Yeah, I began to understand

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quickly the design of duality, which has. Um, aspects of balancing, aspects of positive and negative, good, bad, right, wrong, and that duality framework that we come into when we separate from source and come into this density. became very well versed that there is a dualistic aspect and a separation aspect, and that separation aspect that I saw in those, those parts was more became, for
me, a portal because. I, and I see that in, you know, and I have that in the work I do now, that we can have the, the both, the both pieces and often that projection of those more so negative things is the unprocessed, disconnected part of ourselves that we're being shown and we're just being shown that. In a way that gets our attention. So I was working very consistently to almost collapse

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in that dualistic nature. So that came back into the source aspect of me and a really important foundational piece was that I realized my energy in my energy that's connected now to this vessel, but was spread in source is a very, very sacred and very potent. of realities and a very, um, strong way that we connect to these, uh, programs and patterns and loops and experiences we have. So
I began to work very consciously with something I call the energetic reclamation, which is actually bringing our energy and attention back from these dualistic aspects and really centering it in ourselves. As the source of all. So that work with the energy that I began to do, and it's not, it wasn't, um, it was very, very visceral. It wasn't sort of like, oh, we're working with energy.

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It was literally like my energy is tethered to a pattern there that is showing me a separation from myself. I'm bringing that energy back into the source of my being. coming into being a source, source, being within this vessel. So it showed me how to begin to work with the duality, and that's just one aspect of that work. But I, yeah, I do, I, I, I, the duality was clear. It was a, a very high level functioning
part of this reality that I had to get a relationship with, because you can get lost that density and if it's not processing properly through. Your being then it's a very, it's a very tricky place to exist. kara-goodwin_2_03-04-2026_150239: Hmm. Yeah. Well I think that this, that what you shared and the duality piece, um, plays into my next question, which is what do you understand about why people are

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stuck and, you know, if they're working in their personal development? So, you know, I know this is a little bit less esoteric. But you, but the people that you work with, they're working through, you know, wanting to improve themselves and a lot of people are feeling stuck and so what, why do you think that is? squadcaster-699i_1_03-05-2026_070239: Yeah, it's a multi-layered question, but I think the piece that comes
to mind first is that as humans, we don't have a very. Um, clear relationship to our own pain. We exist in a lot of suffering and in a lot of, uh, fear of our own pain. And that was a major piece for me that I, I, began to realize via my own nervous system that I was in a state of fear, and that fear became from the unconscious to the conscious when I went through my experience and having that fear very present. I began

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to explore what is fear in terms of a design pattern for our reality, I went deeper to find that the fear is only of my own pain. And I realized the only thing every human fears is the their pain of if that thing happens, that they're gonna feel their own pain. And so I was like, well, let's go to the source and reorientate our relationship to our pain, squadcaster-699i_3_03-05-2026_073211: so when I, when I began to look at my own
stuckness, I realized that fear was at the base of the stuckness. And the thing that I realized that I was fearing most was my own pain because. Everything that was creating around me was just giving me feedback that it was maybe unsafe to go into those places. And the, the patterning that I developed in my, in my internal being was I have to keep doing the same thing to stay very safe because if I stretch out. Of the place that I

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am, then I, I'm, I'm going to be able, not able to survive something. And the thing that I felt and realized that we weren't able to survive was our own pain. So I began to very deeply explore how pain is coded in our realities, in our bodies, in our constructs of what that is. And that took me on a really deep journey into what I call the pain portal, which. Taught me and then now teaches others
how to use pain as a liberating force. Because we're bringing a consciousness of pure awareness that pain is a sensation that creates, um, when it's unprocessed creates fear. But when it's completely met, it actually liberates the consciousness that is being stored in the body around the fear of that pain. So say for example, you've had something happen to you that was. Traumatic for you as a child.

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That unprocessed aspect of you almost gets trapped in the inner portal of you. It gets trapped in your emotional system, mental system, nervous system, and then you continue to respond maybe unconsciously from. The place within you that wants to avoid returning to that pain. So then you develop strategies to, to circuit around that and to loop around that place so you do not go back to that pain that
you fear. When we actually understand that and know how to directly return to the source of that pain without the stories or the illusions or the the limitations that we project onto that pain. We can do it really powerfully in the body. That allows the body a true access, that creates a sensation based experience that allows us to release that, that that pain that's stored and release the consciousness

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that comes along with it. And I've watched people change their lives by going through that process of meaning, their pain in a new way, and then stretching their nervous system beyond that threshold that they created from fear. To actually live a different life. And I think for a lot of people healing there is the inner work, which is so potent and important. But the key piece for me is the interface between your inner inner work and how you
interface with reality as a whole. Because that's actually a part that I think we. So we do the inner work, but then we have to actualize that into reality. And reality is just a divine mirror to where that work has to happen and a reflection of when the work has happened, and people very consciously doing this work will take a piece of their reality that's stuck. They'll go and do the core processes. And there's 12 processes in the modality,

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the consciousness method that I work with. And then they'll, they'll shift their external reality and it's a call and response. And there's a very, very deeply empowered state that we can come into when we're doing that work instead of feeling like a victim to reality. Um, so from there, I feel that, you know, people can, can move out of the suffering and the loops and the stuckness. kara-goodwin_4_03-04-2026_153212: That it makes so much sense. I mean, just that, that so
powerful what you've identified with the, the basically everything coming down to we're trying to avoid pain and there's a subconscious part of us that is. Looking at everything that shows up and like, how does it match what's already happened? And did I get hurt when I was in a similar, you know, that pattern like last time I was in a situation like this, did I get hurt? So let me avoid it. Let me, uh, block myself from it. Let me defend it. Let me, whatever it is. But it

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also makes me think of physical pain because. In my culture at least, I feel like maybe in Australia, you guys, you guys are a tougher breed, I think than than Americans. But um, you know, like we just are very pain avoidant and so, you know, like pain medicine is huge. Anytime anybody has a headache, they go straight for the. Pain reliever. You know, there's, uh, everybody wants epidurals. When, and I had epidurals with my children
and ever in post recovery there's, you know, the, the really powerful drugs. My daughter had a surgery a couple years ago and oh my God, I was so like, you know, the Oxy and the Valium and you know, she's li little and we're giving that to her. I felt so uncomfortable. But, um. But there's just this whole culture around, let's rate one of the first things they're gonna do. Rate your pain and get rid of it. You know, you go to the

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hospital, rate your pain, get rid of it. And there's, I think we are missing something with that approach because we are, our body's giving us the signal and, and I've noticed that. As my understanding of that has changed and I get curious about pain that shows up in my body as I bring my attention to it. It actually can go away because I'm looking directly at it and I'm going directly into it and I'm going, okay, well let me feel, let me bring all of my awareness to where this pain is. And
then a lot of times by doing that, I can't find it. So I know that you're talking about it from an emotional perspective, but. I don't know. Is there a physical component? It makes me, and you've talked about the nervous system. It makes me think of the fascia as well, and what we store in the fascia. I don't, I don't know. Does that bring things up for you? squadcaster-699i_3_03-05-2026_073211: oh yeah. No, it's all intertwined. The, the physical pain is always carrying some density of some

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emotional response. That's, that's beneath the surface that we need to be present to. And as you say, the application of consciousness is the, the medicine for our pain. We apply our consciousness and we merge with that pain and it almost dissipates into our system. It doesn't need to be sounding the alarm that we need to go there because it just gets re reconnected. And I think you're right. There is a culture of suppression, of pain. Which for me is a suppression of our liberation because everyone
that's met their pain, just imagine when you do something that you really fear. So when you like, you know, you stretch yourself and you go bungee jumping or you jump out of a plane and like that's an extreme example. Or you just go and apply for that job or ask that person out. You like, you get this like release right in your being. So that's what happens when we go into the pain 'cause we're releasing that fear. So it's like this upgrade of our whole existence around. That, that part of us.

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So people begin to go, actually, I wanna find more pain. Because the more I find that pain, the more I liberate my internal being, the more conscious I am because I'm more connected and there's more energy flowing in the body and there's more light and information coming in, and life is just beginning to feel and look better. Um, and for me. I've identified that there are three core patterns that take us into those pain spaces, and it's the, the pattern of being unloved, unworthy,
and unknown. And that's the book I've written because that's where people often get stuck in these patterns of not feeling safe in these three broad emotional aspects. But these emotional aspects are more threatening to us. As a human race now than anything else. They're the ones that are limiting us more than anything and that have the most fear for us. It's not the physical survival patterns anymore, it's the emotional survival patterns. kara-goodwin_4_03-04-2026_153212: Mm.

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Yeah, that makes a lot of sense. You've brought up a lot about the nervous system. You talked about it when, in relation to your initial experience and how when you came back in, you were like. Oh my gosh, what is this? And, and it wasn't even just like, what is this body? It was like, what is this nervous system? And then, you know, throughout like the way that you work with people, you've talked a lot about the nervous system. So I'd like to talk directly about the role of the nervous system and why is it so important in your work. squadcaster-699i_3_03-05-2026_073211:
It's such a great question. So I don't, I don't speak to regulating the nervous system. In fact, I, I do the opposite because for me, regulation of the nervous system is another form of suppression. It brings the nervous system down into a state that's manageable, but we're often suppressing. What's going on within the nervous system. And then we're almost blocking its development 'cause we wanna keep it like tight and supported and, and safe in some ways. So kara-goodwin_4_03-04-2026_153212: so let me stop you for a second, because are you,

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so when we talk about the nervous system, there is of course the physical nervous system, but are you talking about another aspect, another dimension to the nervous system that we might be thinking of? squadcaster-699i_3_03-05-2026_073211: Yeah, so there's a physical aspect that, you know, that nervous system is responding to everything around you, but I believe there's a multidimensional aspect to the nervous system where it's carrying codes, it's carrying survival codes, it's carrying
protection codes, it's carrying. Ways of responding to the world. And that's actually where I find the wound is most tightly wound up around the response of the nervous system. So instead of, um, I suppose wanting to soothe that and regulate that, I'm wanting to stretch the nervous system beyond the predictable patterning and, and limitation that it just gets very tightly wound and stuck in. So we look to ways to stretch beyond where it feels. Safe into the unsafe zone, which normally is the

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zone of liberation, where you're actually doing the thing you need to be doing that you've avoided to do because there's being pain related to it. So we look with the, we work with the nervous system as, as an aspect of ourselves that doesn't actually move in conscious intelligence so much. It moves in more of a survival mode that we need to work quite firmly with to, to bring into a state that can hold. The truth of our nature, the truth of our being, our authenticity, our identity,
who we are really here to express as. So we work with it a little bit differently than trying to kind of manage it and put it in its little space so it doesn't affect us on a, on a daily level. Yeah. kara-goodwin_4_03-04-2026_153212: It's fascinating, really fascinating. You, you also have talked a lot about the codes and the patterns. I think a lot of people will be familiar with psychological patterns. Um, but I'm wondering like, how, how do you perceive the patterns and the codes, and

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then how do you help people to, uh, alter those? squadcaster-699i_3_03-05-2026_073211: So what I began to witness was that we have these fracture points. The initial fracture really is a separation from source. So when we leave source from being completely loved, completely enough and known and and encased in that, and we separate into a physical dimension. We begin to initiate this patterning
of separation. And at the very core of the pattern of separation are these very unique codes of separation. And I've qualified them under the three words, but they have an energetic, um, and I suppose reality imprint that they leave of being unloved, unworthy, and unknown. So. We kind of initiate into a pattern of separation where we're not connected to the truth of ourselves, but we begin

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to have these patterns that lay in our reality, and we begin to draw evidence that those patterns exist. So we unconsciously look for separation. We look for the relationships. To be a certain way. We understand them to be impacting us in a certain way. We look to where we are not fully heard or seen. We look to where we're not fully loved or accepted. We look to where we don't really feel enough, and we know this intrinsically from children. Everyone can say, you know, I didn't
really feel loved, or I didn't really feel like I was enough, or I didn't really feel like I was seen. We can only know that because we know the flip of that. We know the truth that we are. Pure beings of that connectivity of being loved, seen and, and known and, and enough. But we can feel the absence of that. And then we, we code our reality to keep unconsciously seeing the absence of those things. And that coding creates a pattern of our existence where we keep being separate from

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ourselves. 'cause we are looking for things outside of us to validate us, to love us, to understand us. And that patterning and coding just keeps going. On and on until we identify how we're imprinting that pattern and coding, we are reclaiming all the energetics of that. We're working with the pain that supported the fear, that's created that coding, and we're stretching our nervous system beyond the limitation of that experience. And then
we're raising the consciousness to know ourselves in a different form. So this coding of reality is very unconscious and comes from our separation, I believe, from ourself. From source and then from everything around us. kara-goodwin_4_03-04-2026_153212: That makes so much sense. I feel that we've gone so deeply into the energetics and the. Uh, you know, kind of the psychology even of it. Um, let's bring it home for people so that they can

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apply it a little bit more to everyday experience. Do you have, do you have permission from any of your clients to share some stories of how you've helped people to get to a higher level of consciousness? squadcaster-699i_3_03-05-2026_073211: Yeah. I have a whole podcast called the Consciousness Method Podcast, where my clients come on and we talk about the true. Transformations they've had. And why my podcast focuses on that is
because I believe for me, those, those understandings of what is possible is what I want to inspire everyone to know that you do not have to remain stuck where you are. And some of the things that I can think of from the top of my head that I, I see very regularly are these fractured relationships. Some either with parents or children. So, you know, grown people that. Have this fracture with a parent or they have a fracture with, um, a

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child and they just can't seem to, to heal that. So we've, I've unified and supported the unification of so many families through this work. So many relationships where it was just like, I can never go there with that person. And that can be completely shifted and there's complexities to that. But just overall, the healing that happens when we do this work in ourselves is just profound. Other people have moved off, um, antidepressant
medication and pain relief medication that they've been on for like some, for over a decade. And they found a PA a pathway of processing themselves that they don't need that level of support anymore 'cause they know themselves so well. I've had people initiate from doing, you know, jobs and, um, you know, things that they've felt are, are really against the design of what they're here to do into true purpose. And that initiation has

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just transformed their whole existence because they're like, I now get to express. And, and receive from the core of me, not from this place where I'm just surviving in a job. Um, I've, I've had people find their partners. I've got a couple of weddings coming up. Um, kara-goodwin_4_03-04-2026_153212: wow. squadcaster-699i_3_03-05-2026_073211: people that have been seeking love, um, and they've had these blocks with their nervous system and their wounding and their pain that has prevented
them from being able to receive the, the person that's aligned to them. Um. I've had people literally just come with trauma that's being so deeply embedded in their whole design of their reality that they've really been unable to move past that. It's looped through their daily existence on some level that's created anxiety and fear and and overwhelm, and we've been able to reorientate what that trauma is, what that fracture is in their system, so they can feel liberated from that,

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which is. Just for me even makes me wanna cry thinking about it because it's just, you know, to not have to live in that is just so important to me because I just know the depth of that, that imprint that happens. Um, and that trauma, those traumas range, you know, from psychological to emotional to physical, um, and, you know, work with a lot of very brave people that are going where they didn't want to go. But by going there,
they're opening everything, um, which is just, just really powerful and it moves me. kara-goodwin_4_03-04-2026_153212: Yeah, it's amazing and it's such a safe place because it, those, it is so hard to face the things that we're afraid of and we really, it's so easy to hold ourselves back. And so what are the kind of criteria, what are the expectations for people who work with you? What do they have to. Do they have to be at a certain

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level? Do they need to be able to meditate? Do they need to be able to, like what's, how, how does the work happen? squadcaster-699i_3_03-05-2026_073211: Yeah. What I find is that you. Need to know that you are ready to do something a little bit different. Like there's some feeling in you. Either the pain has got so much, or that feeling of being trapped is so strong that you have that internal motivation that it's time to go. And I work with people that have either done decades of. Of interpersonal
and interrelation work, or I work with people that are just like, I've had something go on and I just don't know which way to turn. So it can be from either side of the spectrum. I feel like for a lot of people, I'm kind of that last resort where you've tried all like a lot of things and nothing's really stuck. So it's like, okay, we're ready to, to go to a different understanding to try to get that movement, but the investment into the work is where the change happens. So it's not me. I'm a

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conduit of this consciousness. I'm not here to heal anyone, save anyone. Make anyone better or, um, protect anyone from what they're going through. In fact, quite the opposite, like I'm very much about. Encouraging the sovereignty of the experience because I don't want people to stay working with me ongoing. I want people to initiate the understanding and consciousness with themselves and go and live their free lives. I don't want to be another part
of that trapping. So I work with people that are really able to know that they need the support to do this for themselves, but that they, they want to do it for themselves. So that's probably the biggest criteria. And just finally on that, in terms of meditation, it's, it's never an eastern style of meditation where you have to sit and clear your mind. Every single process that I have, and I have probably almost 60, 70 processes now that recorded.

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Quantum processes, and I call them processes because they're about processing internally more so than sitting in a state of meditation. Um, I encourage people to move when they're doing those or if it's too much initially to do them with your eyes closed, to listen to them with your eyes open, like people are listening to the process and understanding what they're doing. 'cause it's coding your understanding of reality in yourself. More so than having to, to go into this no thought and no, no space kind of area. But what happens
eventually is you learn the process and then things will happen in reality and you'll be like, oh, I know how to work with that in real time with my eyes open. 'cause I want the relationship with reality to be primary, not just your internal world to be the thing that that's going on for you. Yeah. kara-goodwin_4_03-04-2026_153212: And are you working with people one-to-one or are these like groups or. squadcaster-699i_3_03-05-2026_073211: Yeah, so everyone joins the the Consciousness Method Mentorship, which is the way the

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style of the, the, the modality and everyone comes into. There's five sessions a week, so you are welcome to come to any of those sessions. Sorry, people come not to everybo. Everyone. Maybe you'll drop in once a week or twice a week. Most people listen to every recording because every session has. Things that enlighten and, and bring awareness to their particular situation. That people come on those calls and we'll have a share and they'll share where they're up to and I'll reflect
and show them parts of the consciousness they can't see or reflect the process that they need to to do, to work through that. And we're just systematically going through all the areas of people's lives and people are witnessing that the patterning of our humanity. Doesn't matter what's happened to you. It's, it's the same patterns. It's happened to me, it's happened to you, it's happened to everybody. So we're in. This greater design pattern where we're understanding our unique

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situation in reference to being safe, to have our wounds being safe, to have our pain, have our fear, have our experience, and know that everyone is evolving through that together. So there's five sessions a week, and then there's the processes and, and all the content. There's actually now two mentorships that I run simultaneously. One is around the wounding and one is around the quantum, and they're both available for people that work in that six month container. Yeah.
kara-goodwin_4_03-04-2026_153212: Beautiful. Well, tell us how people can find out more about those things. squadcaster-699i_3_03-05-2026_073211: So I have a book and it's called Unloved Unworthy Unknown, and you'll find that on Amazon. So you can read about the processes there. You could listen on the POD podcast to the Consciousness Method, or you can find all the information on my website, um, all Halliwell, and I am, you know, open to receiving. Whoever feels called to, to begin to explore

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this work. Um, I often get people that have quite a bit of in trepidation, and that's often because I, I know on a deeper level that they're aware that they're going to get true change on some level. And that is scary because you're going into the unknown. So there may be a feeling that comes up that's like, oh, I'm not sure if this is. The right thing. But once you step over that line and, and begin the work, I find people are, are just yeah, relieved to know
that there is a way through. And this is not the only way. There's so many great ways to do this work, but, um, what I wanted to create was a comprehensive model where people could step through things in such a clear way and have processes they use for themselves to do so. Um, so that takes some of the confusion out of the journey. Of, um, awakening. kara-goodwin_4_03-04-2026_153212: It's so beautiful. Well, all Laura, this has been a wonderful conversation.

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Thank you so much for coming on. It's, it's really been a joy. squadcaster-699i_3_03-05-2026_073211: Oh, I'm so grateful, and thank you so much for your divine consciousness and, and awareness around all these spaces so I could express I'm, I'm so grateful for the space you're holding, so thank kara-goodwin_4_03-04-2026_153212: Oh, thank you so much. Speaker: Thank you so much for joining me for this episode of Soul Elevation. If someone in your life would be inspired or
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