452. Exploring Shadows, Dragon Energy, and Galactic History with Neil Gaur

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Speaker: Welcome to soul elevation, guiding your Ascension to new heights. I'm your host, Kara Goodwin, and I hope you're ready to enjoy this fascinating episode with Neil Gower, founder of portal to Ascension. We get into some profound topics like the critical importance of the shadow, which if you've heard other content from me in 2025 in particular, you'll know this is a prominent theme of the year.

We talk about star races such as Lirans and Syrians. We get into the role of snakes and dragons in humanity's history. And Neil shares insights from as many lives in Orion, and so much more. You're going to be stretched into new levels of understanding in this episode, so buckle up. Neil Gower is the founder of Portal to Ascension, a conscious event production company hosting global gatherings and online conferences on topics like human origins, [00:01:00] extraterrestrial life, Hidden truths and the nature of reality. 

Since 2008, he's worked with over 1, 500 experts, facilitating around 110 events annually. A philosopher, historian, researcher, and spoken word artist, Neil explores ancient civilizations, sound and frequency, esoteric wisdom, and pathways to unity and peace on Earth. So we'll dive into that in just a moment.

But first I'm so excited to share about my book, your authentic awakening, a guide to everyday spiritual living, which is out now. I'm so excited about the beautiful feedback I'm hearing from readers. This book is designed to help you reach new heights of spiritual awakening with spiritual guidance, practical tools, and captivating personal stories.

All working together to expand your consciousness and open your heart. Find out more information on Kara Goodwin. com, including how to get your own signed copy or get [00:02:00] it wherever you like to get your books. And now enjoy this episode. 

Kara Goodwin: Well, welcome Neil. I'm so excited to have you on again. Thanks for coming back.

Neil Gaur: I'm so excited to be here with you too. Thank you for having me.

Kara Goodwin: So it has been a little while since you were here. Last time you were here, it was the meditation conversation podcast. I've since rebranded after several years. So now it's a soul elevation podcast.

Neil Gaur: Nice.

Kara Goodwin: Um, but. So I know you've gone through this when you were on last time, but in case this is the first time that, um, in case people haven't heard that episode yet, talk about a little bit of the background of what led you to creating the portal to Ascension.

Neil Gaur: Yeah. So the background is that, you know, like a lot of people I would say in this, in this world that's doing this work, we, uh, I felt that there was something a little off in the world, you know, and I always got to put a disclaimer when I say this, because ultimately I got to a place where I realized everything is how it should be, [00:03:00] but in the beginning I was like, wait a second, some things are not.

Quite how it could be. Maybe, maybe it was a feeling that we weren't living to our full potential, but I don't really know. It was like really young. I was like. Before my teenage years, I just felt this energy I was raised in a Hindu family in London, England and did everything I was told, rites and rituals, prayed to gods. I was singing at temples and never really, um, actually thought about what I was doing. Never really considered God as a part of it, you know, it was just like a cultural thing. And then when I, um, I moved to California when I was 12 when I turned 17, that's really when there was the big shift in my life.

When I graduated in 17 years old from high school. And before that I'd been celebrating Christmas. I'd watched movies on Moses, on Ben Hur, on Jesus, and being raised a Hindu in a really Hindu family, I was curious as to why we were, you know, open to all these [00:04:00] other cultures and traditions. And I was told by my mom that, um, you know, all these other. faiths are real as well. So I was wondering, well, if we believe these faiths are real, why don't these faiths believe we're real?

Kara Goodwin: Good question. Yeah.

Neil Gaur: there's only one, there's only one way for these other guys. Right. And, um, so because of that thought, I started looking to see if there is a root of all religion. I wanted to find a root cause, a root. Um, system because maybe we all came from somewhere because I, if the story of Adam and Eve, which is a whole other conversation of what that story really is. But if that had any truth to it, then there were less people on the planet. Maybe there was one religion, maybe all stemmed out. I immediately found out that there was very, a lot of similarities with Jesus Christ, Yeshua. and Krishna. And these two beings should have evolved separately from each other. [00:05:00] What I was told in the one year I went to Catholic school back in, in England, because the monotheism and polytheism supposedly were independent and had nothing to do with each other. But now I'm seeing that there's these monotheistic, um, deities, you can call it Yeshua, one of them, and ones from my own religion that That seemed to have the same story, same backstory. So is there a root to this? Where did it all come from? How did we, how did we exchange information? And as I was searching and it was 18, 19 years old, 2000, 2001, I found the Sumerian scriptures. I found a lot of ancient scriptures. I was going through a lot of them and then eventually found the Sumerian tablets of creation. in that is the source text for a lot of Old Testament information. And including other religions. And so, so what I found in there was two smoking guns and I'll, I'll leave my back straight at this, the two smoking guns were [00:06:00] one, it was the, the whole, we were created in God, in God's image and God's likeness was right from that text, but it said we were created in the Elohim likeness and the Elohim is a plural and it's. It doesn't have a gender to it. It's androgynous, right? So the original text that just changes the whole patriarchal God, God being a man, and it changes God to multiple gods. And it even said star beings, and it said where they came from, what planet they came from. So that was one big one that I was like, wait a second. then the second one was, I found a story of a flood. Of this hybrid giant, called Gilgamesh, traveling the planet. And as he was traveling the planet, guess who he runs into? Noah!

Kara Goodwin: Hmm.

Neil Gaur: okay, wait a second, this hybrid giant is roaming the planet, it means Noah. Noah tells him about the flood, but why is Noah Not the only person left on the [00:07:00] planet. What? thought the story of Noah was his only one. And this is the original text. So I realized the Old Testament took part of that text and didn't show the fact that there were other hominin, hominin species on the planet. There were non homo sapiens species coexisting as sentient life on the planet at the time of Noah.

Kara Goodwin: Right. And they, they omitted the giants. I mean, that's like super fun and fascinating. And they took that part out. I mean, come on.

Neil Gaur: Yeah, so those are the two things that me down the rabbit hole after that and been a long journey Since then.

Kara Goodwin: Well, and you do explore all kinds of fascinating. Aspects of history, kind of hidden history, we could say. Um, now when you started talking about your background, you said, I want to preface this by saying I've since come to the understanding that everything is perfect [00:08:00] as it is. So let's, let's unpack that a little bit because as you explore these things and it's like.

Why has this stuff been suppressed? Why, how has that been detrimental to the advancement of humanity, to consciousness, to us realizing our full potential? And I, I would love for you to expand upon how you've come about to understanding that everything actually is the way it should be. And those things all coexist together.

Mm hmm. Mm hmm.

Neil Gaur: okay and I would say that the first glimpse in everything being how it should be was forward eight years from the last story. I just gave you the Noah story now It's 2008 or something like that and I'm at an open mic and there's someone on stage that became my friend later And he's singing this song.

My name is love. I was in the back [00:09:00] kind of like just like reflecting on things And I'd been in conspiracies for quite a while, like I, this took me down bloodlines, Illuminati, conspiracies. And I was, and I really just completely had the concept that we're screwed, that they control us and we have no power.

Right. and also all this information was very spiritually connected, right? These ancient texts, um, you know, there's a whole story within that of how I rediscovered Hinduism and what it was really about how basically Hinduism is like, is like a quantum physics. Lesson really, it's like an acoustic version of quantum physics embedded in the text. And so as I was discovering all that, I knew it was spiritual, but I didn't feel a spiritual connection. And during that time, in that moment, really, I realized that the missing link in all my exploration was love. that not only was it, it, it love, but everything happened the way it was supposed to be through unconditional love, [00:10:00] giving us the experiences that we needed, that we signed up for, to put it very simply, right for that one before we all signed up for this. ultimately way I look at it now is that on earth have achieved the greatest heights of evolution and consciousness. Right. Earth was a gift to a lot of those individuals. And it seems maybe in some way that the universe gifts most advanced with the more challenging situations. Just like, you know, I'm not just, just like if you got specific certifications and the more certifications you have, now you're able to do these harder tasks. know what I'm saying? like what Earth is. And we were given the gift. So after we went around the cosmos, experienced all we could, achieved a lot of knowingness, achieved a lot of connection, um, the question was, well, how can [00:11:00] we go and experience something different? when we know all this stuff, what's a good way to what's a recipe for success for experience in this moment? why don't we go down to the the the lowest of densities, right? And why don't we wipe our memories clean? we don't remember any of that stuff, put ourselves on this planet, and see if we can still figure it out even though we don't have any memories of it, right? And again, these are all putting things lightly, right?

So let's, like, so that's pretty much what happened as we came to Earth, now the beauty in that is where the cards stacked against us. we able still able still to see and we'll get into this the light or Are we able is the spark of consciousness so much of what we are that even when we wipe the memories of it? It will still come back to us

Kara Goodwin: Mm

Neil Gaur: And so we've been going through that process of that choice. Now within that choice, [00:12:00] there were cycles that we created, cycles of time. cycles of time gave us the opportunity to remember. don't know, full remembrance, sometimes full remembrance, sometimes not, and then abilities to forget. It was an, it's been an endless loop for quite some time. I don't know how long, but it's been going on where we evolve. Usually it's around 13, 000 years in the last rendition and then devolution for 13, 000 years remembering forgetting remembering forgetting As we've been in that cycle over the last few hundred thousand years, the cycle has been getting even further apart. Right? Where our forgetfulness is getting more extreme, our remembering is getting even more powerful. And this cycle has been designed by us, by our star family, who also are us in many ways, for us to gain certain experiences and clock them in. And not only that, also [00:13:00] as an experiment in consciousness. Because it's not only us that is doing it. Think of how many species there are on planet Earth, right? There's many, many, many species on Earth. Many planets, many civilizations. They don't have as many species as us. Some of them only have a couple of species. Right. it's Earth is also a place where many different galactic beings, if not all of them have donated DNA to the earthly experience to also go for this ride. So it's a multifaceted experience gives us the opportunity to have these. Um, you know, highs and lows, but also gives us an opportunity to figure out how to live in harmony with all these other species that connected genetically to all species in the galaxy. as we're, as we're working out how to live in harmony with all of them, the DNA and the genetics connects to the galactic story of all the [00:14:00] drama, karma and trauma, which is what I like to call it, that we've created throughout the galaxy. So. One of the other layers of earth and what we're doing here is also through our experience of earth, bringing peace and harmony throughout the galaxy.

Kara Goodwin: hmm. I love that. And if we kind of take what you talked about in terms of the, you mentioned kind of a disempowering quality to the uncovering when you were going through the, the uncovering of what's under the surface of reality mentioned the Illuminati makes me think I'm reading this book right now called Transylvanian sunrise.

Have you read this? It's an old, it's, it's been around for at least a decade, but, um, it uncovers a lot of this and it takes place in Romania. Um, but it, I am going back and forth with a lot of like, Oh my gosh, you know, it's verifying [00:15:00] some of the things that you have touched on, not, not directly, but the overarching kind of thing.

Um, but. I have to hold on to my power, you know, because it does feel so much like the deck is stacked against us. And so that is one of the things to be mindful of is just that empowerment piece. So let's talk about the, as we go deeper into, and this could relate to the collective, like what you've talked about in terms of the powers that be that kind of hold so much power.

And it feels like. How could we ever be liberated when there's so much against us or it could be individual, you know It could be that we have all of this trauma stacked into our lives We're tapped into so much of the things that we're guilty shameful that we're You know still processing things that have been done to us So all of those that we could call shadows [00:16:00] that we have in an individual level all of that can make it feel like it's really difficult to Then really be the fullness of who we are.

So how, how can we use the darker parts of human existence to come into ourselves?

Neil Gaur: well, it's interesting because all those, as you said, all of those can make us feel that we're not as who we really are, but the interesting thing again, another paradox is without having that we're not fully ourselves. Because there is, there is a shadow side to all creation and shadow does not represent evil always. Um, let's get to neutral shadow and neutral light. The sun, is it a good guy or a bad guy? Or does it just exist? It's the light, right? It does a lot of good, but if you were close to it, it could burn you into nothingness. A black hole, well it [00:17:00] represents the darkness. Is it good or bad? Well, from afar, we can observe it and enjoy it, but then when you're next to it, it'll just pull you to shreds.

And, but those are representations of light and dark, and they're also representation of masculine and feminine because the sun out just like semen is spews out energy, The black hole, just like a Yoni, it takes in light. It's the masculine and feminine counterparts. Well, so then the feminine, we have count, we've given the. Um, the archetype of darkness, but it's not the evil darkness. It's the Kalima, it's the, it's the wormhole. It's that kind of. right? So this is how light and dark originally fragmented, not until we became denser and denser and denser did the shadow part of creation become what we now know as good and evil, right? And when we transcend and descend and go into other dimensions, [00:18:00] are going to get to a reality where Um, light and dark will still exist, but the polarity is different than the duality. Duality and polarity have merged within this reality. So let's take a step back to the original inception of this. So first, when, when we exit, when before time and space, right? And the ancient stories speak about there being a frequency, a word, the word. I used to think that maybe God or the original source was light, right? And a lot of, um, a lot of like maybe, um, Religions talk about God in that kind of way, but that's a whole other story because I feel that those aren't actually the source God. But if you get to the ancient origin stories that talk about what, um, God originally was, almost always you hear some sort of sound, representation of sound. So the [00:19:00] sound, the singularity, or before the Big Bang, the singularity or the oneness, it's split. What did it split into? It split into duality. it split into duality, part of it went really, really fast, sped up, the frequency sped up. And what did it become? It became light, because light is at the higher, is a higher, not a higher frequency as in spiritual frequency, but a rapidness of frequency than sound. And then the other part of it slowed down. did the slow down part eventually become? The darkness. So the singularity became the duality, where light and darkness eventually emerged. And my question to the world is, when the singularity split into duality, And it eventually became light and dark. Did it love one part of itself more than the other? Did the singularity or god, that's the godhead, split to become darkness and light, and said, okay, light, I only like [00:20:00] you, darkness, I hate you, cast you out, you're Lucifer, let's, let's figure out how to destroy you. Or, did it accept both of itself unconditionally? if anything, maybe it would even like And be more intrigued by the darkness, because the darkness was more of the polar opposite of what it originally was. Because the light still embedded harmony within it. The darkness? Embedded chaos and through chaos came heart came.

Um, what's the term through chaos? I forget the term, but basically from chaos order, And this whole world has come from random atoms and all these things that seem so random, but it's created this beautiful world that we've now created order of, right? So that's the original concept of what happened now. In that reality, there was only one dimension that had been created of this experience. [00:21:00] eventually the light and dark coalesced into becoming planetary bodies, becoming people, becoming, um, becoming extraterrestrial races, interdimensional beings. And now here is how agendas and intentions manifested. So just to kind of summarize what I said, the, the reason why singularity split into duality became this was for one reason, which is to experience itself infinitely, something other, but as it split itself to experience something other, it allowed its creation to have free will. And when it's creation started becoming physicality and beings free will of these beings were able to inflict their own agenda on creation. And now we have the cosmic play. Now we have the beginning of the ideas of good and bad, you know, and then being saying that you must be like this. This is the only way to be right light beings [00:22:00] that we've manifested as gods that were just a fragmentation of the original source. Of course. that allowed, that was allowed to inflict its own free will onto us, and they happen to choose to want to give us light. I don't know if this makes sense, but there's a, I'll hand it back to you, but there's a continuation story of the, um, the Garden of Eden story with God and Lucifer that really represents this archetype as well.

Kara Goodwin: Oh, well, yeah, let's go into that. And then I also want to take it into the individual level. Cause I love that on the evolutionary level, on the bigger, um, mass level. And it addresses what we talked about in terms of like the, the agendas. Right. What that we're all kind of playing into here, um, willingly or otherwise for many people, otherwise, but then we've got the personal journey too.

But let's talk about the garden of Eden, the Eden. Yes. And [00:23:00] that

Neil Gaur: that has created this paradise and wants Adam and Eve to stay, stay in it. And now the snake comes down the serpent basically doesn't really manipulate. Eve, but tells Eve what God is doing and says, Hey, God basically doesn't want you to have the opportunity to know yourself. But if you drink, if you eat from this tree of knowledge, you will know, and you will have basically the snake gifted humanity free will. God wanted to create a fifth dimensional paradise for. Uh, and Eve and didn't want them to leave to experience anything other than that beautiful utopian reality. The snake gave us the opportunity to experience free will. However, when we left the garden of e um, Eden, we had our memories wiped clean, and then when we had a memories wiped clean, and when this world was struggling, we thought a lot of people thought it [00:24:00] was original sin, that we must have sinned. We must have been kicked out of the garden. The story of the Garden of Eden is actually a story of the. Lyrans and the Syrians. The Lyrans and the Syrians were um, geneticists, one of the earliest geneticists of Earth. the Pleiadians helped them out too, but it was really a Lyran Syrian, um, bond. basically, there had been a lot of wars in Lyra, the Lyrans eventually came down to Earth. There were other beings that had been here before and had left and they came with the Syrians and they decided to do a genetic experiment on the modern creation on earth with their own DNA and what their goal was was they were going to create a lower dimensional than them being and they were going to incarnate into these beings in order to live a simultaneous incarnation in a utopian earth. So the beings that they were creating were going to have their own souls in it, Lyran souls. [00:25:00] So as they were doing this to the Syrians, the Syrians said, Hey, you know what, like, I don't think you guys can do this because even though you're creating these beings and they're gonna have your souls, you're creating them in a free will universe. cannot, you cannot tell these beings, even though they're your own souls, you can't tell them that this is how they have to live, even though it's a great, you need to give them a choice. So the Syrians the Lyrans both had direct connections to the original source and they could get information from source They could remember source. So the Syrians went into some sort of state where they could communicate directly with source told source what was happening basically reporting and saying hey the Lyrans are violating the free will of these beings and then source said basically shrugged his shoulders and said everything will happen as it should happen because The source intent is to experience There is no real wrong experience for source. so the Syrians came down and they [00:26:00] took matters in their own hands. They offered tribes, these are tribes of beings, Adam and Eve are representing tribes and not two people offered them the ability to know free will. that was the story of it. So what this also represents is the, the snake represented the shadow of God. Okay. The shadow of the garden of Eden, the shadow of humanity. It was the, it was. Basically, reptilian type of, uh, frequency that, uh, exposed the shadow part, whereas you can consider God basically a New Ager that only believes light exists, and doesn't want to see the darkness. of reality, but the Syrians weren't representing darkness. They represented more of a balance between the two and knew where the growth is. So giving the humanity the opportunity to lower themselves into a dimension [00:27:00] to have this full experience. Now, as we came down to earth, the shadow part of ourselves came as well, and what's been going on for so, so long is there's been so many challenges, so many traumas, and the shadow has grown. in many ways, a lot of us have pushed away the shadow part of ourselves, especially in today's modern world. It's jumping. Fast forwarding thousands of years now to today's time, we've gotten to a world now where, um, we have to be productive, we need to show up, we need to have a roof over our head, we have to, there's a lot of struggling going on. So many people, they don't have the opportunity to integrate parts of the shadow that they've collected to this life and others, it could deteriorate, um, deter them from being able to just be an regular person that's a productive member of society. Right? And what's happening now is that the only way that we can really shift into this higher octave of existence [00:28:00] is by integrating fully. Earth experience to me is, is another experiment of can we live in duality while we walk in singularity? Right? Because duality will still exist. singularity split into duality. And that's all the way into the highest of dimensions. Duality exists. But are we able to embody the oneness? And how do we embody the oneness?

Well, we integrate the dark side of ourselves, the darkness of ourselves. And darkness of ourselves, a lot of times, isn't, as I said, evil or bad. Many times, it's our own self. Talk that tells us we're not worthy, we're not good enough. It's things that we've accepted and imposed on ourselves that make us feel lesser than who we are. Right? And then of course, then there's other parts of like why you act out, why you manipulate, somebody might be manipulative. Somebody might lie [00:29:00] a lot, right? All of these different things. And when you get to the root of where they all come from, it comes from an innocent child most of the time that got hurt or traumatized. So a lot of times when I've done my own shadow work, I've been afraid to sit with myself. What am I going to see, right? Especially when I've done plant medicine experiences. It's like, oh, like I'm really afraid, like I'm going to see I'm not a good person. Ultimately, what I end up seeing an innocent child that got hurt. more than more times than not, you end up having compassion and empathy for yourself. And for having compassion, empathy for yourself. But not feeling sorry for yourself, having compassion and empathy for yourself, you eventually get to a place where you can nurture yourself and re parent yourself, so that you can integrate yourself, you can integrate with your own shadow.

Kara Goodwin: is, that's the work, you know, I [00:30:00] think, uh, thank you for taking us through all of that. And there, there is so much in there. There's. So much for us as individuals to reconcile within ourselves and with, without being willing to integrate that shadow, we're missing an opportunity to into that, to be in that wholeness, you know, because just like you talked about collectively that split, you know, or that full expression of oneness where it went, you know, very high vibrational, uh, low vibrational and that was light and dark, but we have this within ourselves too.

And, and I completely echo what you're saying when we come across our own shadows, it's really hard. You know, I know that my knee jerk as things have risen because a lot of times for me, it's either a memory comes out of nowhere that I have suppressed so effectively that I haven't looked at it for decades.

And then I'm like, how did I forget about this? And, [00:31:00] but the instinct is, Don't look at it. You know, there's a part of me going, don't look at it. Nothing good's going to come out of that. You know, you're going to get hurt again. And it's the willingness and the courage to be able to say, okay, well what is there?

And this is showing up right now. So it's time. It's time for me to look at this. Maybe I have the tools now to see this in a different way and to kind of alchemize what is showing up so that we can integrate it into ourselves. Um, There were a few times, I love that you talked about the Syrians and the Lyrans.

Um, I'm having Debbie Solaris on later today and she's like

Neil Gaur: No,

Kara Goodwin: um, Akashic records. What's that?

Neil Gaur: She's a historian for

Kara Goodwin: Historian. Yes. So this is such a great, like just in my own little world, such a great primer for what's about to come too. Um, because I just, uh, in researching for her, [00:32:00] um, her work, I've. Also come across a lot of the Syrian lyre and stuff.

Um, there's also, when you talk about the snake and you relate that to the reptilian energy, there's an ET component that I do want to come back to, but also do you have anything you want to say about like the Kundalini energy with the garden of Eden, the garden of Eden and the snake? Does anything come up there?

Neil Gaur: Yeah, well, the, the snake definitely does represent the Kundalini and, but that gets into archetypal and Orion connections of the

Kara Goodwin: Oh,

Neil Gaur: of what it represents, 

Kara Goodwin: oh,

Neil Gaur: did a presentation in Consulate Expo on Orion Wars. She's doing one on portal to ascension soon on that. And we just did a conference two weeks ago on the Orion constellation, all on Orion. And so that's a huge connection there. Um, it's more of the integration of the reptilian energy within us, which also represents, you know, awakening enlightenment, but when you see the snake, not only in biblical texts, but all around the [00:33:00] world, most of the time, it is a representational wisdom, spiritual enlightenment. And even advanced science. So, in the Sumerian text, you see snakes represented in ways that talk about transportation. So, transportation for these beings, how they transported themselves to Earth. So, in my, theory, is the snake also represents a wormhole.

Kara Goodwin: oh,

Neil Gaur: because you see some really beautiful scriptures with snakes and then humans on the other side of it and it kind of looks like it's talking about these beings coming through a portal to earth whatever they did genetically changed the modern man on earth.

Kara Goodwin: okay. I don't know if I've heard that before, but that gives me chills. I love it. And it makes me think too of like Mayan structures. Like I went to, um, the Yucatan peninsula last year and, and I know you did the galactic cruise. You organized that, right? The galactic cruise in the autumn or in the winter and, uh, went to some of the Mayan temples as well.

But. [00:34:00] There were all these snakes depicted on these ancient temples, ancient pyramids as well. And I was kind of like, Oh, I wonder if that's like the Kundalini energy or what that is. But that makes so much sense

Neil Gaur: Yeah, oh my god, snake represents so much. It's like, where do you even start? But the, this, the snake energy, energy, let's say, represents the shadow part of Earth also has a polar opposite, represents the awakening of Earth. But when it comes to the fact that if you showed a snake Right here in the room right now. Okay. And your room to you or to 100 percent of the planet, all of a sudden there's a snake in front of them. are 90 to 99 percent of them are going to freak out there. Even if I like snakes. I like snakes. I'm into reptilian energy, but I would still freak out from a snake. some sort of thing ingrained in our mind that that specific animal, or [00:35:00] the specific reptilian, um, has something to us, does irk something to us. There's a collective trauma that we experience from a serpent energy. There are many reptilians in the universe. The reptilian template was here. Before human template was the dragons were the ancestors to all the reptilians and when we got here, just like how they're good and bad humans. There were all types of reptilians as well.

And they still are only around 5 percent of them. Can you even consider nefarious? Only around 5%. The rest of them are, some of them are supporting us, some are our ancestors, but a lot of them are just doing their own thing because they have no reason to interfere with us. They're living in harmony wherever they're living, right? The ones that specifically affected us created such a disturbance in the force, if you will, that it took us to a point of having a collective trauma over reptilian energy. Different species [00:36:00] as well because some civilizations didn't have that. A lot of ET races have interacted with different ethnic groups on Earth. So this collective trauma has manifested in this world. Now to take a step back on the original story. It there, one of the original stories, because the Anunnaki also had a reptilian connection to them. But one of the main stories of the manipulation of the reptilian energy on earth that created the shadow. Connects to everything we just spoke about, including the cycles of time. this goes back into Orion in the central star of Anilam, and which is a star I had 101 lives on in, in a planet rotating around it.

Kara Goodwin: that you did.

Neil Gaur: yeah, that I did.

Kara Goodwin: Oh, wow.

Neil Gaur: just on like a two hour presentation on my lives in that planet.

Kara Goodwin: Did you get that through like QHHT or?

Neil Gaur: exactly. Uh huh.

Kara Goodwin: Oh, wow.

Neil Gaur: And more memories have been coming since then.

Kara Goodwin: Was that one of the outer ones or in the belt

Neil Gaur: it's

Kara Goodwin: of Orion [00:37:00] in the belt?

Neil Gaur: belt, the central, the central star in the belt,

Kara Goodwin: Okay.

Neil Gaur: Anilam.

Kara Goodwin: really strong connection with that one. I mean, 101,

Neil Gaur: yeah, yeah, yeah.

Kara Goodwin: that's a lot of lives.

Neil Gaur: Hey, it's so strong, I just did a 22 hour, 2 day event on it.

Kara Goodwin: Twenty two hours?

Neil Gaur: 11 hours

Kara Goodwin: mia.

Neil Gaur: for that's not my Some of my conferences are 11 hours a day. yeah, I just did two weeks ago, we just did 20 to 22 hours of Orion information.

Kara Goodwin: Wow.

Neil Gaur: Yeah,

Kara Goodwin: awesome.

Neil Gaur: yeah. And it wouldn't have happened if I didn't that connection to the dragons. I had a QHHT session three years ago on, and then I had three other sessions and Orion stuff came up. I saw myself as a reptilian in three different reptilian races.

Kara Goodwin: Wow. So tell us more about that.

Neil Gaur: So long, long story short.

Kara Goodwin: Yeah, not twenty two hours worth.

Neil Gaur: What was the only one speaking, but

Kara Goodwin: Yeah, I know.

Neil Gaur: this is a long journey. Like, so basically. This, um, there's a, there's [00:38:00] stargates throughout the galaxy, um, probably all throughout the universe, and these stargates allow you to go to other planets, and then some of them are specifically designed to allow you to go to other dimensions, and some of them are also designed to allow you to go into lower dimensions as well, right?

So it'll pump, it'll kind of like dematerialize you, and then you'll be born on another planet. Right. It's, it's like what people think heaven is like, Oh, soul comes from heaven and comes to a womb. It's also almost like a planet that you're living on and then a portal you can go through and then come into a womb. Right. And so the largest target in the galaxy is on this planet, rotating around the central star in Orion is the, um, it's the Stargate of all Stargates really. And it. It's called well, it has a nickname and the nickname is and this is a whole other story here But the nickname is portal to dissension. Okay,

Kara Goodwin: That's very appropriate for you in particular.

Neil Gaur: That's why I [00:39:00] was the Stargate Keeper. So you know the movie, the movie Thor when um, there's that guy at the Rainbow Light Bridge in Thor and he's holding the Trident and he, he knows the codes to put you through the Stargate to go through? It's exactly like that. I was that guy. I was the Portal Keeper. And the Portal Keeper is someone that knows the technology, knows how to repair it. how to, what codes take you to what realities, has a collective memory of all the codes. So basically the guy that knows how to run the machine. Okay, and So in the beginning I was actually before this even came about I was actually one of the races that came from outside of Orion That created the Stargate on that planet.

I was one of the technicians. Then I transitioned from that life and all my life started on Orion. I started being born in Orion and As windfall memories in order to keep up this Stargate. So I was doing that for generations and generations. And then [00:40:00] the Orion Wars broke out. the Orion Wars was an infiltration. And now there's two different stories here. One is it was a reptilian infiltration, and another one is it was a non personified energy that hijacked the bodies of reptilians on a planet in Orion and then utilized their bodies to inflict their intentions. Which is what my friend Laurie Annette, who's like the big little Elrond ambassador says. So, I'm not sure if it was direct reptilian energy or if this is the story, but basically, these beings that look like they're reptilians started this war. And the backstory to that Right. Is that you can't even think of, you can't even blame the starters, whoever started the war because there was actually an original wound that happened millennia before that created a conflict between reptilian and human. beings that was because humans were [00:41:00] utilizing reptilian DNA without asking for their approval. They were violating their own free will of their DNA. That was the original wound. Ages later, these beings are in a war with humans on in Orion. Now the war is about to end, and my planet has been devastated by war, right? And So the reptilians, they're about to lose the war. since they're going to, um, since they're going to lose it, they knew this is, this is what their consequence was going to be energy in the universe always exists. Your energy, I'm energy will always exist, but your personality can be neutralized your experiences your identity Who you are can be neutralized and you can just become a part of the energy source of it all so their consequence was some sort of some sort of ceremony to basically neutralize their and just [00:42:00] rejoin the collective energy of the nebula of m42 in Orion

Kara Goodwin: And, sorry, are we still talking about the reptilians?

Neil Gaur: Yeah, that

Kara Goodwin: Okay. For

Neil Gaur: them for what they've

Kara Goodwin: the war. Okay.

Neil Gaur: so what they did was they invaded my planet. um, this planet had a creator god technology in it, a orb that was buried deep into the earth that terraforms planets. You get this orb, you put it into a planet that's desolate. Within hours, rivers, mountains, lakes, terraforms. It was called, it's called the cosmic egg. And it came from M 42, which is also the cosmic egg. It was birthed from the mother nebula. there's a few of them in the galaxy. So they came to this planet. They, they extracted the core from the planet. They went up to the Stargate where I was with a bunch of other people fighting. They overpowered us. They, they won that battle. They went through the Stargate. When they went through the Stargate, where did they go? [00:43:00] To

Kara Goodwin: Earth. Hmm.

Neil Gaur: So we saw the code on the Stargate was Earth. we couldn't witness them there. They weren't there. We couldn't figure out where they went. The code said they went to Earth, but they're not there. We could even see millions of years of Earth history all in one moment because of the way Orion works. we couldn't, we saw their manipulation of DNA everywhere, we couldn't see them anywhere. So what happened was they took this technology, the creator God technology, and the technology allowed them to stop in between dimensional incarnations. They stopped themselves in between time, able to observe 100 million years of Earth time at the same moment. Became a hundred million year puppet, master of Earth. were etherically, um, affecting earth's DNA and manipulation from 100 million years from before. Today, up until [00:44:00] this moment, was around a hundred million years ago, the dinosaurs, one of the first things that they manipulated were the Raptor.

Um, the raptors, the Raptor, DNA. They actually look like raptors. The raptors in them look the same,

Kara Goodwin: Those are the flying, the giant flying ones. Is that right?

Neil Gaur: The Raptors.

Kara Goodwin: No, that's a pterodactyl. Are they like the

Neil Gaur: Um, you know, have you seen drastic park in the not the

Kara Goodwin: have

Neil Gaur: but the one before that,

Kara Goodwin: so.

Neil Gaur: basically one of the dinosaurs becomes really like intelligent

Kara Goodwin: Oh, I don't remember.

Neil Gaur: or it's the two legged, the two

Kara Goodwin: Okay, two legged and it's like medium sized, long tail, like, okay.

Neil Gaur: And, um, so that's what they, they look like. And they basically altered that DNA. And what they wanted to do was they wanted to incarnate on earth. And their reason was to escape prosecution and escape what the consequence was. So then, but the new earth had this veil of [00:45:00] amnesia and earth consciousness was that at such a low level that if they incarnated, they would wipe the memories clean and they would also be susceptible to the environment of earth. So what they were doing was they were manipulating DNA slowly, but surely over a hundred million year plan in order to shift Earth's consciousness, to get it to a point that sentient life could start incarnating and they could incarnate without forgetting the memories, right? So on one level, they, they did something bad on another level.

So they're the reason why Earth's consciousness got to a level that it could harbor the life that we have now, right? on one level, before they came to Earth, the cycles of time were what I would, what I said in my presentation is basically the cycles of time was a Ferris wheel, right? You'd go up a little bit, you go down a little bit. When they came down to Earth and what they did is they made it a roller coaster. They [00:46:00] made the dips so low, which only allowed for the polar opposite to now exist. The highest of heights, the school of earth, being the one of the best schools in the galaxy right now for human, for souls to come through, to be able to achieve the greatest of heights, right? So even though they came and they did all this, they began implementing a plan to protect themselves from a fear of what was going to happen to them. But the consequence of what they did was actually something that ended up becoming positive. And allowing for this as they were genetically altering our DNA, they started also contributing towards parts of our own, uh, physical body. Our amygdala was a donation directly from them the reptilian brain is actually also from them to the reptilian brain grew before our cortex and other parts of our brain grew. what are those two parts good for? Okay. [00:47:00] The amygdala, it regulates our fear. The reptilian brain, it regulates our survival. What were the two traumas that they brought within them? and having to survive. So what they contributed to our experience on Earth, is our ability to survive. And our fear and you could probably agree that fear isn't always a bad thing. It's actually a warning sign for us to know that lion is going to eat us. You know what I mean? So anyways, that there's so much more I don't want to keep going on because I've said enough, but that's some of the story.

Kara Goodwin: Thank you for sharing that. And you touched a little bit on dragons to start with. And I would love if you could just give us a little bit of your insight on dragons, because, you know, I, I feel like they are classified as reptilians, but they're. I think it depends on your perspective, just like everything.

It depends on your [00:48:00] perspective. Are they good? Are they bad? Um, can you give us an, and I know it's much more complicated as you've illustrated through this whole talk, you know, it's never just one or the other, um, but talk a little bit about what dragons are and their, you know, their history, their purpose.

Neil Gaur: So yeah, the dragons are the original ancestors of all reptilians. They, I don't think there are any bad dragons, um, and most of them have actually now aren't physical anymore. Most of them have ascended to other dimensions where they're representing guides and assisting us. this one tribe that I connected with was, it's called the red dragon tribe the dragons have assisted in many different levels, but these ones, um, basically they help with the birthing process. So there are there is well firstly souls don't come from outside of space. They don't come from heaven [00:49:00] They don't come from outside of earth. They come from the subatomic particles within all made of subatomic particles the subatomic particles all have a singularity so in essence You could kind of say that we're made out of infinite black holes and and wormholes And that, kind of like a holographic projection, you're having frequency vibrate in and out. And that light frequency that vibrates in and out is a representation of your physical body, that our limitation of our bandwidth frequency sees and feels as physical, but is ultimately just a light emanation coming out of infinite singularities. projection, right? nothing comes from outside.

Everything comes from within the wormhole. Um, the illusion is that it comes from outside. And so now the earth as well, souls quite literally get birthed from a subatomic particle within the core of earth. In the core of earth is subatomic energies as well. Everything has subatomic energy because we're all made out of atoms.

Atoms are made of subatomic [00:50:00] particles. There is this place inside the earth that looks like a translucent blue pool and it's kind of like the outside, the exit hole, exit of the wormhole. is where souls come from. The souls get birthed from this. this translucent blue pool are the red dragon tribe, the apparitions, because they're all spirits. When a baby comes through, the dragon will take the baby, caress the baby. And they will go and implant it into a womb, kind of like the stocks, you know, the, the

Kara Goodwin: Storks? Yeah.

Neil Gaur: yeah, yeah,

Kara Goodwin: Uh huh.

Neil Gaur: That would go and do that. They're kind of like that. And now what is the womb? The womb is a wormhole for life. And this is, I don't mean this metaphorically at all. If the, the case in point on that is that if you have four or five children and you believe the soul exists, [00:51:00] is every soul of that child already inside of you? Like, say that this person has five kids, so does that mean that they have six souls in them now? And does it mean if they choose not to have two more souls, they got two more babies, they got two extra souls inside of them? Or, does that soul come upon inception from somewhere? And it does come from inception, and I've seen, um, the fertilization of an egg with a sperm, um, through a microscope, and there's this light spark that happens in that moment.

And I feel like the soul enters basically the the dragon spirit represents ability, a technology to utilize the wormhole within the womb to implant that fertilization with an actual baby. And so they assist in that process. And now they stay around with you for the first three years of your life. They act as your imaginary friend. They do, you know, sometimes you see them as dragons. You know, this [00:52:00] one person, when I was in Germany last year, some random doctor asked me and my friend, What do we do? You know, I try to try to keep it as light as possible, but like, Oh, she represents the angelic realm. And then this person super mainstream says, well, you know, it's interesting. My, I always said, well, she represents the angelic realm. I do events on consciousness. She goes, well, it's very interesting. My daughter had an imaginary red dragon friend for the first three years of her life.

Kara Goodwin: Wow.

Neil Gaur: this person is not into spiritual world.

I didn't even mention dragons. regression was only three months before that,

Kara Goodwin: Wow.

Neil Gaur: um, so a lot of people see dragons. A lot of times they act like different, different beings. And what these beings represent are actually the buffer zone for the trauma of coming to Earth. They are your counterpart.

You knew them in the dragon realms. They're your connection to the ancestry of the reptilian energy that goes beyond this because many of us on Earth [00:53:00] are or have had reptilian lives. And then when you hit three years old and your memories start they curl up into your heart and the whole, and then you go lifetime after lifetime with the intention and the goal to activate your dragon heart. Right? And right now we're going through a collective activation of the dragon. So last year was the year of the dragon. And the regression I had was a few months before that. I had no idea the year the dragon was coming up. I never even considered Chinese. Um, Zodiacs up until then um, what I got was that the dragons have been assisting us unconditionally off the grid, off the radar for quite some time, but now it's time coming for a really pivotal moment in humanity that they're showing up in real form.

Now, they're coming to the forefront. They have been a lot of reptilians, including the dragons have been so supportive of us, but when you get to a point where you transcend your own ego, you don't need to have credit [00:54:00] for what you're doing. Right? So there's beings out there that we might even collectively judge on earth that don't care because they're supporting us unconditionally Including not just the dragons but different, uh, different reptilians as well.

So

Kara Goodwin: Well, it's fascinating that you bring up that Last year was the year of Dr. The Dragon. This is the year of the snake. So we're, we're right on point accidentally with our conversation,

Neil Gaur: let's get into now the shadow work part

Kara Goodwin: Yeah,

Neil Gaur: so the course that I'm doing and why I'm doing it. Well, we already spoke about why the shadow workers course is a representation of riding the wave of the energies of these last two years So it's it's amazing. We have two reptilian years Combined yes, the reptilian energy represents so much more But for earth and what's going on right now is a collective reconciliation of the shadow it's happening individually and collectively. [00:55:00] for example, the dragon year, it was the masculine wood dragon. And it was, the dragon represents fire fierceness, right? Um, no bullshit kind of thing, you know, just like, let it all go out there. And so what happens during that year is things come to the surface and it's like, You have no choice but to deal with it. Deal with it. It might be a little chaotic for you. It might be a little existential crisis. It might be like, who really am I? What really is this? But deal with it. Um, so for us individually, but also collectively, um, things like the Epstein files, things like P. Diddy, things like, um, the corruption that's going on, um, in the world, and atrocities and the real agendas behind things, right? it's even celebrity stardom crumbling. Okay. What we, and that's a whole, [00:56:00] obviously another conversation as well is stardom and hierarchy is crumbling because we're ending the age of hierarchy. We need to realize that we are great beings individually. And the only way for us to really do that is by to crumble the structures that we've considered to be better than us. Right. of the shadow work. Now we get into this year. This year is the female, the feminine snake. Okay, great. Now we can do the shadow work with a little more ease and harmony. It doesn't have to be so forceful and fierce. what does the snake do? snake, it sheds its skin. And does it shed its skin with, is it hard?

Does it go through challenges? Is it in pain? No, it sheds its skin effortlessly. And ultimately, there might be a little bit of nervousness as the shit is being shed, as the skin is being shed, because you're afraid of what you're going to see underneath. But once you shed your skin, what do you [00:57:00] realize? You were beautiful and intact all along, right? And I feel that's the most archetyped metaphor to really represent what's happening now is the shadow work continues, but we all, when the shadow work happens, can do it with ease and grace. We can realize that deep down underneath all of it, we were beautiful all along. So what I want to do this year is I've had some astrology readings and some other, uh, divinely orchestrated moments that made me realize that I'm taking a lot of shifts with portal to Ascension and what I want to bring into the world. And I feel like what I want to bring now for myself and then as a reflection through Portal to Ascension is some really deep transformational experiences. part of that is radical vulnerability and honesty with ourselves and others, including things like avoiding distractions that help us or moving away from distractions that help us avoid seeing things within ourselves. Right, because we have so much of that, [00:58:00] whether it's the media, whether it's your phone, whether it's some other vice, right? We have so many things that allow us just to Not look deep within what's happening with ourselves So I'm curating events this year that give us the opportunity to do that and that shadow workers course We're gonna do over three months. It's gonna I'm gonna be along the ride with everybody know, we're going to be doing some deep work and it's really about people who, um, want to, and I'll just end this part with this. If there is a eventual, one of the eventual goals in here is how could you with some of the deepest atrocities in the world, That have happened. And a lot of things that we've seen right now and be at peace with yourself and that other person and see the wounded aspect of that person, but still be sovereign enough. To hold that energy accountable from a non reactory [00:59:00] place, right? Because what's what happens? We get triggered. Oh my god, he did all this stuff. Like, look what P. Diddy did. Look what Epstein did. Uh, this is what we need to do. I can't believe it. Oh my god, this is what the world's like. the reaction. How can you see what the original wound was of creation up until that moment? What their wounds were and see that in a, in a light of how do we rehabilitate the darkness? The darkness and one more analogy here, when I was in Vipassana a few months ago, I was, the whole shadow workers course came to me after day six.

I've been meditating for many hours a day. what I saw was an apparition that a lot of times people have said to me the light is so strong when you switch on the light, the darkness runs from it. And what I saw was that same moment in my mind's eye. saw somebody come into a room of darkness, switch on the light. then instead [01:00:00] of what that was, I saw a little child. Shadow child, no facial expression, nothing that's just black in the corner of the room, quivering in fear. That is a more actual representation of what darkness is then, Oh my God, I don't like light them out. It's a wounded part of creation that has been fragmented and fractalized so far from the original source that it doesn't even recognize itself in the light anymore. Right? So what, which is why, why do people say sending you back to the light, sending you back to the light? Because they're trying to have the darkness remember itself in that, right? And on the polar opposite, the light's the same way. The light doesn't even itself in the darkness in many ways. Which is why it's not about being a lightworker. It's not about being a shadow worker. I'm only doing a shadow workers course to harmony between the two. If there's anything I would say, and [01:01:00] we've started this thing out with it, we're frequency workers. It's neutral really, right? We give the polarity to it. It

Kara Goodwin: That's beautiful. So when, when are you having this course?

Neil Gaur: starts August 16th.

Kara Goodwin: Okay. And how can people find out more about the course and more about your work in general?

Neil Gaur: Sure. So the course if you go to portaltoascension. org Upcoming events, and then you scroll down there Just check the fourth or fifth one It's the Shadowworkers course You can also go to all of our upcoming events Check it out there, it's also listed there And if you're interested in anything that we're doing at Portal to Ascension, we have some amazing events coming up this year 26 and 27 25, which is now I'm taking a break off live events But in 2026 We have like three live conferences.

We're doing a Mediterranean Greek Island cruise and Turkey cruise. It's going to be great. And then 27, that's the year of contact. In my opinion, that's, that's going to be a [01:02:00] huge year for us realizing we're not alone collectively on the planet. So we're building up energy for that. So if you want to be a part of what we're doing, portaltoascension.

org, you can sign up there in the newsletter and then also our YouTube channel youtube. com slash portaltoascension.

Kara Goodwin: Beautiful. Well, thank you so much, Neil. This has been such a wonderful, informative and deep discussion. I really appreciate your time.

Neil Gaur: Thank you. I appreciate you too. Thank you everybody. 

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